the 9th days after...

I went out for do some errands today.
It's been 7days since I went outside last time.
I completely didn't go anywhere for 6days.
I stayed at home, watching news or dramas on TV with sitting a couch all day.

I didn't have any feelings to do something.
I was so tired to say "I'm OK. or I'm moving on to the future. or I'm carrying on".
I thought that I had to say.
Because there are so many people here who are suffering more than me.

In fact, I'm not OK. I told lie to my heart.

Now I stopped saying that as I would be going crazy.


My friend said
"You don't have to put up with my heart.
You hurt. Everybody hurts by this disaster.
Pain and Suffer can't be compared with others.
You should not consider that your suffer is lighter than others."

I feel better when I read this message.


I decided to move step by step for my own way.