Sunday, March 20, 2011

the 9th days after...

I went out for do some errands today.
It's been 7days since I went outside last time.
I completely didn't go anywhere for 6days.
I stayed at home, watching news or dramas on TV with sitting a couch all day.

I didn't have any feelings to do something.
I was so tired to say "I'm OK. or I'm moving on to the future. or I'm carrying on".
I thought that I had to say.
Because there are so many people here who are suffering more than me.

In fact, I'm not OK. I told lie to my heart.

Now I stopped saying that as I would be going crazy.


My friend said
"You don't have to put up with my heart.
You hurt. Everybody hurts by this disaster.
Pain and Suffer can't be compared with others.
You should not consider that your suffer is lighter than others."

I feel better when I read this message.


I decided to move step by step for my own way.

Friday, March 18, 2011

the 8th day after the earthquake

It's Saturday.

Uhmmm...

I haven't been outside for 6days. completely!
Everything is jamed.
But the things seems to be better.

Some of the shops in the central area in Sendai open.
The morning market open.
However many of the people are standing in line in front of the shops to get food for hours.

I am lucky, because I have some potatoes, carrots, radishes, and other something to eat in my house. (But I don't have meat.)
Maybe my family and I will be able to live at least for 2 weeks in this stuffs.

It's 8th day after the disaster.

I hope that the things would be better soon.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

3.18

Many of my foreign friends got out of Sendai by buses their Ambassy booked, because they are scared of radiation.

They have a family, and they have to protect their family from everything bad things.

I can understand this situation, but I miss them.
I miss them a LOT!

I know that it's not forever, but I don't know how long this situation is going on.

I'm scared of the leak of radiation.
I could get out of Sendai, but I have a job, and family.
My husband and my sons have also jobs and school.
(The university my son goes to will closed for a month at least)

We can't go anywhere else.


It's so sad, but I don't know even what is sad.