I'm back.

I'm getting better, and maybe, I was able to get out of the bottom.

I had been depressed for almost a week.
One day a freind of mine left a commet on my site (neither here and My space).
I thought it was kind of criticizm to me.
She might have not meant it, but I thought that she criticized me.
She said that I was surpposed to be able to go to an university and go anywhere without money because she could do that. She couldn't totally understand why I didn't go. She thought I had many excuses with them.

So I had been looking back to my life, and thinking about myself since she did.

"Didn't I do that I was surpposed to be able to do that?"

And I found my answer.

"Yes, I did."
I couldn't go anywhere because of no money, and I was pretty busy because of having a job, family, and children. There is no doubt that I couldn't go.

I am not her, I am a different person with her, of course. I don't have to follow her.

That's my answer.
It took a week to find it. But it is worth because I was able to see myself deeply.